What happen?

Is there anyone out there can tell me what is going on with my blog?
Suddenly has so many ads pop-up????
Especially those ads after nuffnang's at right side of my blog --->>>>

Since when all this pop-out?
Weird!
I don't like this!
I don't like ads pop-up without my permission!

Or....
did I accidentally add those ads without noticing it?
hmmm...?

What happen to my blog???
My blog is my emotion express station, not advertising platform!!!

Sad.

Where is my time???????

Time time time....
Why you dislike me so much???
why why why??
I want you.... I need you...
why do you leave me... why... ?

YooooH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to write blog!

I want to surf internet!

I want to upload photos to FB and blog!

I want to want to want to do so many things!!!

Time! I need your help... really!

Please accompany me longer...

please please please...

Sorry to those that waiting for my new blog post.

I am very sorry....

sorry for not updating my blog..

I got to go...

Hope to update this soon... SOON.

“死咯”

死咯！

惨咯！

糟糕咯！！！

为什么会这样的啊？

哎呀呀呀！

几乎每一次都是这样的咯！

咦... ...！！

真讨厌！！

为什么每一次我需要赶工时，

懒虫就会来攻击我？

为什么？？？？

死懒虫...

走开啊！！！！！

离我远远的！

我恨你！！！！！

走开！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

Shooooo!!!!!!!!

ishh!

...

...

我想睡觉...

泄！

啊！！！！！！！！！
哇哇~！！！
啊呀呜~！

哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦~~~~~~~

噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢！！！！！！

噢噢哦哦噢噢～～！！！！！

噢噢唔哑呀呀呀！！！！！！

AAaaaaaahhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Aaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!

Ahhhwooo!

我叫、我喊、我发泄！

发泄完毕了吗？？

请继续工作去～

EeSoon，

就算肥，你也要加的啦！

加油加油！

EeSoon, FIRE UP!!!!

E$tra job$

I am actually trying very hard to save money...

I don't earn much from my current job, BUT

my monthly expenses is high even it's excluding food expenses!

I need part time job...

I really need one... or maybe 2... the more the better!

Now the thing is,

Do I have the time to do part time job???

energy, can be trained,

strength can be motivated.

But time???

I can't get extra time,

nobody can!!

how ah how ah how ah??

I got 2 part time job offers today...

I am attracted and interested to both offers,

but... where can I find time to actually do it???

it's not about time management anymore!

I manage my time very well!

60% of my daily routine was my work!

I work about 14 hours everyday including

weekends (most of the time)!

HELL!?

where to get more time?

you tell me la...

time = money?

no time, no money eh!!?

I even sacrifice the time to be with mr. boyfriend...

Now tell me, where can I find time?

How can I get more time?

hmm...

time..

I NEED THE MONEY!!!!!!!!!!

still...

Alone

I don't feel good right now.

I am feeling alone.

I am alone.

I am not lonely,

I don't feel lonely,

but alone.

I guess...

feeling lonely is way better than feeling...

alone.

Don't ya think so too?

I am alone..

I feel like... let out a cry?

hmm...

maybe a little...

tears out from my eye?

This is not good...

not good not good...

not good at all...

:(

FIRE!!

I know I can do it!!!

I MUST have this!!!

A lot of this!!!

determination!

motivation!

persistence!!

confident!!!

All this has to be done before Friday!!

EeSoon!!! You can do it!!

I can settle all these things before Friday!!!

It's a MUST!!!!!!

No time to waste!!

Wish me luck.

Goodbye.

烦躁、暴躁、粗造！

粪！

今天真的很不爽！

很不爽很不爽很不爽！！

粪！

严重声明，

我正在发泄！

若担心会影响你的心情，

请不要往下看！

我不会为你的心情改变而负责，

即使你的心情改变是因这篇而造成。

我要喊！

啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我要叫！

呃！！！！！

我要呱呱叫！！

呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱呱...

最近的心情真得是超级烂！

被工作压得死死的，

忙忙忙忙忙忙了一个早上还不够，

下班回到家还要继续忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙。

无止尽的工作，很烦人啊！！

人做这行，我做这行，

为什么别人可以那么轻松？

为什么别人不埋怨？

为什么只有我再吵？

这到底是因为什么？？？？

工作时最重要、最需要用的工具，

竟然出事？竟然有问题？？？

讨厌！！！！

啊！！！！！！！！！

烦烦烦烦烦烦烦！

厌厌厌厌厌厌厌！！

人不舒服是否看什么都不顺眼？

肚子饿的人脾气是否特别暴躁？

压力重重的人是否有权利大喊大叫？

现在的我，

好想跳进泳池里，

沉浸在水里，

停止呼吸，

停止任何动作，

就在水里憋气...

憋...憋...

什么都不想，什么都不做，就憋气...

享受水的温度和抚摸。

憋...憋...

憋...憋...

憋死我吧！

Respond Please !!

Why I don't get any response from you??

Why why why??

Are you really that busy??

Or I am too free, nothing to do,

and then asking for replies frequently??

Did I?

Am I?

I am not sure...

2 sms sent from me since 9am till now,

one morning greeting and the other one

contain a question that requires simple answer...

that's all...

...

Too much from me...

meh?

?

I need reply la...

reply reply...

reply me laaa...... !!

why no response???

Want me to call on phone meh???

Who knows you might not convenient to talk?

I don't want to disturb you...

I don't want you to feel annoyed because of my call...

aiyoo... sms only ma.....

can u please reply me?

ISH!!!

I assume no respond that means ..

u not interested to what I sent to you de la!

Then whatever I asked in the sms...

you don't need to bother lo... ?

Whatever... whatever...

..

..

don't bother...

don't need to bother...

...

...

No!!! Cannot don't bother !!!

I am crazy!! No!! Cannot!!

OOoiiii!!!! EeSoon!!!

Why are you irritating yourself here?

You want answer from him?

Just go and make that damn call la!!

ISsshhh!!

Grrrr!!!!

Go!!! Shooo !!!

Moooooody Soooon

moody moody moody~

moody EeSoon.

I "no like" this EeSoon.

I dislike.

relationship is somehow...

make me feel...

tiring~ annoying~

disappointing and heart breaking~

I am feeling bored with it.

Works can't make me relax,

relationship makes me tense,

I am frustrated.

Somehow, I lost myself.

I need holidays!!!!

Holidays do help!!!!!!!

I know it for sure!!!!!!!!

7 more days to go!!

EeSoon EeSoon~

I want the happy you back!!!!

Emo EeSoon is very sick!!

IShhh!

Punishment

Ya ya ya.

Again, I am planning not to sleep.

I have to finish my work!

Work works workssss.

Again, bad time management plus laziness,

equal to sleepless nights plus last minute work rush.

Good for ya, EeSoon!

Why can't you just learn how to manage your time, EeSoon?

Why can't you just do works day by day, little by little, EeSoon?

Why do you like to do it in one shot and rush works

few hours before the given deadline, EeSoon?

Why????

why?

And you like to expose your laziness in your blog.

Wasting time here instead of settling the work you suppose to do.

Aiyo!! time management!!!

Manage your work, EeSoon.

Manage your time, EeSoon!

Sigh... EeSoon... EeSoon..

Never learn...

never change...

pathetic!

不想睡觉

三更半夜，

不想睡觉，

想干什么？

我不知道。

在干什么？

没有概念。

在想什么？

这个...那个...

这些...那些...

再多四个小时，

就要开工了！！

为什么我的身体还不想睡？

太紧张了？

紧张什么？

呃...工作！！

拜托，

睡吧！

去睡吧！！

快去睡吧！！！

你的身体撑不了多久...

EeSoon，再多几个小时你就会开始垮啦！

睡觉去！！！

现在！！！

马上！！！

立刻！！！

要‘酱’咩?

我不要... ...

emotional disturbed

sssssssss

Grrrr...

Aahhh!

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

I just wanna release my negative emotions.

That's all.

I feel like doing this...

right now.

seriously.

EeSoon.

R.I.P EeSoon.

坦

我想太多？还是...

我想太少？

其实，我是一个坦荡荡的人。

我没有秘密，也讨厌秘密。

我不喜欢隐瞒，不喜欢悄悄话。

所以很自然的，我不能接受身旁的朋友对我有所隐瞒。

相对的，要我对别人隐瞒某些事情，

其实，我是很辛苦的。

为什么人就不能坦然些？

人，真的有那么多秘密吗？

真的有那么多见不得人的话/言语吗？

所谓的什么：

“不告诉你是知道你听了会伤心/难过/生气/不高兴...”

对不起，我不吃这一套。

伤不伤心，难过不难过、生气与否，那是我/听者的选择。

你没必要为我操心这点。

任何有关系到我的事情，请坦然地告诉我。

不需要理会我的听后感，

因为我那么大的一个人，我会自我调整心情。

开不开心，会不会不高兴，

那是我的选择，外人不需要去理会。

我讨厌秘密！我憎恨隐瞒。

当然，你可以选择隐瞒，

你也有权利选择不告诉我你不想说的。

但至少聪明些，不要‘漏口’，说一些不说一些。

既然说漏了嘴，就请你坦白些吧！

讨厌说话兜兜转转，婆婆妈妈的人。

每一个人对周围的人/朋友都会有要求。

我的唯一要求是，请对我坦白。

若你讨厌我，就直说吧！

如果不想见到我，也直说好了。

没什么好兜兜转转的。

“EeSoon，下次出去时，我不想和你一起去。”

简单。

“EeSoon你的动作令我看了很不顺眼，请停止。”

“EeSoon，我不想和你讲话，你不要来逗我说话”

就那么的容易。

“EeSoon，我很顶不爽你的态度！改一下啦！”

“不要一只看着我，你的眼神让我很不舒服”

清清楚楚，简简单单。

说出来，有那么的难吗？

真的，有那么难吗？

听者听了后会有什么决定、什么想法和感觉，

这些都不需要去想。

至少你让他知道他的哪一些动作、言语是他人不能接受的。

你做了件好事呢！

所以呢，做人，坦白一点吧。

这里有秘密不能说，那里因顾及你的感受而隐瞒...

这只会让人与人的感情疏远。

This will only create crack in the friendship.

Again...

Again and again and again...

Why am I always feel so bad when I can't control my class...

Why can't I just raise up my voice, and explode like volcano??

Why can't I just scold the children?

Why can't I just shout to the kids?

Why am I so annoyed?

Do I really have that much endurance??

THAT much patience????

Or...

I just lack of the discipline skill I need?

The workable discipline skill...?

The class management skill...?

Again...

I feel like I am a failure...

....

Again...

Most of you are not well-behaved in class...

Most of you are out of control!

Getting over excited, loitering in the class?

Talking during lesson time,

playing/drawing/writing when I am talking to you?

Oh hell...

What happen to the word call 'respect' in you?

6 years old...

you all are really smart...

All of you are adorable...

I love all of you, BUT,

I will prefer, or I should say,

I will love you more if you could just behave well in the class...

Children are pure...

children are simple...

they do not have any intention to make you upset or sad...

they just live their life,

do what they want.

That's all.

You are the one who wants to be angry/upset of their action...

children won't purposely do anything bad...

they are so innocent...

That's why I was wondering...

Why am I so upset with them?

Maybe not the children...

Maybe I am upset with myself...

Why am I so... ... such a failure?

...

...

I need to brush up my managing skills!!!!!!!

Class managing skills!!!!!!!!!!!!!

REALLY!!

need it.

very much.

All the best to me.

Good Luck EeSoon!!

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Be Strong Girl!

I am loosing control of my class...

loosing control on my children...

I feel like... I can't control my class anymore...

It is so so hard to make them listen to me!!

somehow... sometimes...

I feel like giving up...

But I can't!

I cannot give up just that easily!

NOPE!

Find your management skills, EeSoon!!

Find it back and use it!!

I will not defeated by 6 years old children!!

No and never will!!!!

GRrrrr!!

Power up!!!!!

Confident level UP!!!!!!!

EeSoon!!! Go!!!!!!! EeSoon!!!!!!!

I don't have much time...

only ... 4 more months... left...

Come on, EeSoon!!!!

Energy UP!!!!!!!!

朝思暮想

想

想想

想想

想

想

想想想想
想

想想

念！！！

结果呢？

结果咧？

...

...

还不是继续地想念？

为什么要想到那么苦？

很苦咩？

也不会啊...

(骗人的)

太理智的人是不是都不会制造情趣的？

太理智的看待一段感情，

是否会让人觉得无聊？

...

...

啊！

无精打采

头痛

疲惫

空虚

压力

疲倦

纳闷

头晕

忙碌

思念

期限

烦躁

急促

忧郁

犹豫

心情复杂的我...

现在很情绪化...

太多太多的情绪...

弄得我好累，好累。

我好想睡觉。

一觉睡到自然醒，

不用去烦工作、

不用烦生活怎过、

不用烦感情、

不用烦未来；

什么都不用烦！

什么都不用去想。

我只想好好的睡一觉。

不想醒来了。

醒来！拜托...醒来..

我什么时候变得那么情绪化了啊？

还是我现在才发现我本来就那么的情绪化？

为什么我宁选择在这里浪费时间打部落，

都不愿意去做我该做的事，完成我手头上的工作？

EeSoon，

你有没有那么懒惰哦？

你有没有那么累噢？

你到底在累什么？

你到底在烦什么？

是不是需要被骂一下，

才会有工作的冲劲？

停止沉睡了啦！！！

EeSoon,你到底怎么了？？

醒来！！起来！！

提起精神来！！

哈咯？？？？

真得很讨厌这个要死不死的EeSoon，

吊儿郎当、浪费时间、没有冲劲的EeSoon。

拜托，开始工作啦...

不要再浪费时间了...

please...

grrr...

what happen to you...EeSoon?

呐喊

AAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！

啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！！！

啊..............

就是想喊。

压力、情绪、开心/不开心、失望、伤心、兴奋！

我喊！！！！！！

啊！！！！！！！

AAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!!

Just let me...

express myself through shouting...

just...

leave me alone.