2 Years

It has been 2 years since my last post. Hatred was the last post which express my exact emotion during the days in year 2020. Do I still hate my life? To be honest, I never like it so ya, still hate it. It's just the matter of mentality. If you think it is nice, you will feel good; if you think it's miserable, yes, you will feel pathetic. It's fine~ perfectly fine.

How is everyone? Are you still reading blogs? Do you hate your life too just like I do? Are you looking for a place to release all those negative emotions? Go talk to your toilet, and flush whatever it is to the toilet. Settle. Hope you feel better.

Just to say hi after 2 years. haha. Hie and bye~ love you, my bloggy. Miss you so much.

Hatred

当你对每一天生活里的人、事、物都同样的感到极度反感、厌烦、厌倦、讨厌、甚至怨恨的时候，你是怎么继续走下去的呢？或则说，你是怎么处理这些负面情绪的呢？怎么把它们“撇开”？

I hate my life. Hate it from the bottom of my heart. Seriously, I never been hating my life so much before. Hate it.

Empathy

Sometimes, sometimes... maybe most of the time in my life...

One question: Why does people with empathy always gets hurt?

Is it because they are able to understand other's feeling, and the reasons/excuses of the people that hurts them, makes them unable to blame others but accept the harsh?

Meaning, just because of people with empathy understand other's can't control their emotions, they should accept being hurt by those without empathy?

Why people without empathy can enjoy the freedom of releasing negative emotion to others but people with empathy have to accept those negative emotion to themselves? They can't channel the negative emotion to others because the empathy holds them back.

Why? Just, why?? I don't get it. I wish I am not born with empathy, so that I can just release my emotion freely without considering other's feeling at all. At least that way, I feel free.

I am frustrated.

I am annoyed.

I am helpless.

But I have to shut up now. Why? Because I understand if I keep it on, you will feel annoyed as well. Well, so the negative emotions still lives in me (which I don't think I deserve it). Got to find ways to release it!!!!!

Reality

I had been staying in my dream for too long,

and now it's time to wake up.

Counting down the days,

I have left 4 more,

and that's it.

Back to life~

back to reality.

No more dreaming,

no more relaxing,

oh, why is reality so harsh?

My life,

my choice,

me, live-in-it.

duhhh

oh well...

okay.

代价

任性！

斗气！

放纵~~~中！

任性好玩不是？

斗气很爽不是？

放纵得到自由吧？

好啦，之前让你放肆几个月，

现在就让你付出代价！

活该。

都是自己的选择。

自己种的因，

就要尝自己得到的果。

为什么要在我任性时，让我遇到你？

为什么要在我斗气时，让我看上你？

为什么要在我放纵时，让我决定拥有你？

加油吧。

努力争取自己想要的，

希望如愿以偿，

万事顺利。