Anxiety

I am afraid.

I am scared.

I am feeling..

unsure..

unsafe...

fear...

It's not that I have something in my mind,

and it's certainly not about my work.

It's just a feel...

and...

I am feeling anxious...

"What happen?"

You asked me...

I ... have no answer.

"nothing..."

I said.

"Are you ok?"

Again you asked...

and again, I ... have no answer.

"I am ok..."

I said.

Maybe it's because of...

(13 August 2011)

My body's natural reaction...?

My body refuse to have physical connection with you after...

I found out that...

my psychology ... is not ready...

I feel shy...

I feel blush when you looked at me...

I feel shy when you wanted to kiss me...

I don't dare to look at you...

because I feel unease...

I feel scared when you hugged me...

just... a lot of anxiety in me..

Sorry dear.

I'll let you know once I am fine,

once my psychology is ready.

I don't think I am ok right now.

because right now, I am still feeling...

anxious...

very.

But dear,

don't you worry about me,

I will be fine very soon~~

I know.

Cheers~~